:)

Night shifts ended off well. The new implementation of NIC role has it's pros and cons but nevertheless I still think it's good especially when there's new admissions coming in, the NIC can really load off the PN some time. The giving IVs part is also quite helpful.

Sleeping day today, day off being split so gotta return to work tomorrow :(

Gonna meet up with Charmaine, Grace and Pingy for dinner later. Finally we managed to find a slot that fits all.

Hai... still got so many things on hand to do.. My plannings for nursing counter 6S project has yet to start, ward Christmas party got thousand and one things to plan for and nowadays I can't anyhow change shifts already cause I've a preceptee to tag along for the next 2 months. Hmm...

Alright, maybe I should take another short nap before heading out.


I forgot to bring back my Little Miss Sunshine, Little Miss Chatterbox and Mr Small :( They are camping in my locker in the ward :(:(

Monday Morning!

Good morning all!

Just came back home from breakfast and supermarket shopping with Mel Xu.
This irritating woman woke me up at 7plus am to ask wanna go for breakfast or not. Disturbed my beauty sleep @#%$&^*(*)&*!

Anyway, still went ahead to meet her at Causeway Point for Mcdonald's breakfast. We gossiped, we chat and we shared some top secrets. Disgusting secrets of some people. Okay, I know it's bad but the topic came too sudden and Mel was extremely high on it ok ;p

Went over to NTUC FairPrice for supermarket shopping. My favourite :) :)
Mel and the bitter gourd
I wanted to smile in this picture but she said that my life is too grumpy and bitter like the bittergourd so I should frown instead :(

Well, bought quite alot of stuff to top up at home. Hopefully mum will be abit happier and not grumble so much.

Gonna do night with Mel today. We are praying for the best.

Ever and ever

I really want it to be forever and ever...

Long overdue pictures.

Life has been the same lately. Work, work and still work. My next day off is on Wednesday. Which is my sleeping day :(

Nothing much...

Below are some photos from ward chalet that is long overdue.
Day one of chalet.

Mahjong addicts going to the extent of playing using round table.
Day 2 of chalet. The bowling queens.

Me getting ready too!
Day 2, the rest of the staff joining in.
Setting up of BBQ pit.

Sweet couple.
Da ward 10B
Traditional way of "fanning"
The four of us who stayed over.
Serina, Jacqueline and me
Vani and her burnt corn.
Our god mother who's enjoying life in India now. Please come back soon!
Jacqueline n me. They always say we look alike.
Us and god mother.

Hmm that's about it.

I'm extremely elated and happy today :)

Now n Then

One year ago an one year later.

Both taken during Janey's bday 1 year apart :)

Janey's 21st

Day off yesterday, went to celebrate Janey's 21st bday.

Met up with Dearies the day before to shop for Janey Janey Jane's present.
Met up with them yesterday morning to do Janey's Mr Hao Nan Ren.
Ok lar, don't grumble. I know I overslept when I was the one who set to meet at 1030h. :x

Went to Carmen Gold's house to do Mr Hao Nan Ren.

The making of Mr Hao Nan Ren:
Notice Elsusa being condemned by us. This is to prevent her from copying our love notes to Janey ;)

Rush off to meet Janey at Orchard Station. Had lunch at Mos Burger and also unwrapping of gift.


Usual toilet photo.

Walked around and headed off to look for Janey's mum for Yami Yogurt while Tang went off to meet See QY.
Janey, Elsa and Carmen must be laughing at me over this picture because the plain one w/o topping is mine. I like to be simple ok. Stop laughing.

Chit chat and have our regular catch up session over there before we head over to Valley Point- Dozo Restaurant.

While I was on the phone, they were busy snapping away.

Elsusa trying to model herself.

Tang and See Qy arrive shortly and we started our dinner.


Had fun time dining with them. Photo taking after dinner. The restaurant gave a small cake to Janey.

Photo taking with Tang's Polaroid. Last but not least, she and her sweet sweet love. So envy.

Home sweet home after.


Today went to work at 8.30am. Float around the ward and I practically followed the NL team for the whole ward of NL patients. Now I know all the NL patients.

Off for BCLS and AED recertification at 1pm. Quick and fast. But I was extremely nervous that Joanna was laughing at me in the tea room during lunch. Scored 44/50 for MCQ. And I managed to pass each practical with one attempt. Thank God!

Back to ward and float around helping Sister Jayanthi to do her work then knock off.

Mood was extremely low. Nowhere to go and no one available. Went to Northpoint and walk around. Had dinner there and headed home. Been rather down lately. I've no idea what to do.

I don't want what I expect to happen. I'm praying everyday.

:(

I thought I was very tired. But not now.
This is gonna be another sleepless night for me.

My heart is aching so much. I can feel the tension and the pain so badly. I can't even breathe properly... I guess I must have upset myself too much again. Why am I torturing myself when I knew this will happen?
Hai...

I'm unsure of the situation. Or rather, I'm sure of what is happening. But I'm in a denial stage. I'm refusing to accept the fact, the truth that lies in front of me.

It's such a failure to not even know what is happening right now when I always say I can feel.

Maybe I'm just not up to it. Maybe I really cannot endure. Maybe I'm really not the one. Maybe I should just give up and be independent from now. I'm being too naive.



I wish I could just faint and not wake up. I wish I need not face all these. Why am I always the one? From work, to family to life.

Probably one day I will just get aneurysm like grandmother. Maybe I will be happiest by then.

updates

Hmm.. it's been a while..

Again, I've been through a lot these few days. Shall not mention much as I don't wanna feel the ache again.

Bro successfully proposed to Cass. I'm gonna have a sister-in-law :) Sweet of them.
And I hope their ongoing plan will be successful.

Family ties haven't been good. I'm pretty stressed up. But what can I do?

Work had been busy too.

Personal life.. is still a mystery.

Anyway, in half and hour's time will be Janey's bday. Happy 21st Bday Janey! :)

I wish time would stop there. But it never.

:) :( :) :(

I'm happy.

I'm sad.

I'm in dilemma,

I'm stressed.

I wanna scream, I wanna run away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dearest Jassy, your message has been receieved :) Thanks!!! I'll be strong. You gotta be happy, don't worry about me..